While there might be many reasons, my capability is no doubt the major contributing factor. This includes thinking, structuring, execution, managing as well as underlining confidence.
However, I have been arrogant for so long, believing I can do anything given the opportunity.
When I tried to think back to identify the root cause, I could only come out with one thing:
I have been in a lenient environment for too long and I just need to re-calibrate
And it is not only gaming that might do this to us.
In Chinese Kongfu movies/novels, it is far too common that the character falls into a cave or a lake and then discovers some superb marshal arts manual or weapons. And then he emerges as the best Kufu master, takes his revenge, gets the perfect girl and rules the world.
Here, the marshal arts manual and the weapons are the “Cheats”.
In western super hero movies/comics, people get their super power from accidents. For example, Spiderman gets it from a spider bite and Hulk from a failed experiment. And then they rely on that super power to save humanity.
Here, the accidents, the bite or radiation, are the “Cheats”.
These very very attractive “Cheats” are shortcuts that do not really exist in reality.
They might seem to exist, but they do not.
Once we fall into the habit of relying on “Cheats”, that is the beginning of the bitter end.
Gradually, we convince ourselves to believe in more and more “cheats” and waste time and money on them, without any sustainable results.
A good example is my investment journey.
I changed my approach from Dollar Cost Averaging (DCA) into broad indexes to buying individual stocks, just because my wife’s return surprised me.
And then I started speculating.
All this while, I never really sat down to research a sector or company.
Even by luck, I had very good returns in the first few months, I was not able to pocket it.
And now I am sitting at huge losses.
In comparison, to select the DCA approach to kick start my investment journey, I spent months in researching and only after that, I made the decision based on my style and sound logic.
And even if it did not bring me stellar returns, I was seldom in the Red Zone.
The misconception of reality will translate into tangible losses.
It has been a while since last time I did something like this.
I am really tired today.
For the first time in a long time, I did not have time to eat or drink or think. I just moved from meeting to meeting and from deliverable to deliverable.
Here I am, exhausted with a painful throat.
For the first time in a long time, I did not have time to do anything else because of work.
I guess this would happen sooner or later since the moment I decided to take over the scope of a colleague who was leaving.
I did not like the scope and I did not expect anything in return.
I did it simply because it would help my manager out and I was the best person to do it.
Still, I do not like the scope but I know I am doing pretty well, probably better than anyone else in the team would.
In a way, I asked for today to happen.
Do I like it? Let’s just say I know what I am doing and I do not hate it yet.
