Quick updates

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Dear Readers,

Thank you for coming here.

I would like to provide a quick update on my status in this post.

I have started work. For sure, there were people who laughed at me. Luckily, there were people who welcomed me as well. I consider this less important now because I have already given up all the “faces” when I decided to accept the offer.

I refinanced my property loan from HDB to Bank loans to enjoy the lower rate, something I could not do without a job.

I still suffer from emotional “rollercoasters”. I took the causes down as they happened.

• Anger with myself and self-blame — I keep thinking about What-If’s and there are a lot of what-If’s given the 7 or 8 wrong decisions involved. As illogical as it is, it seems “sunk costs” do have the power to sink people.
• Tangible losses — Serious setbacks. And worse still, I do not have a clear way to make up for it.
• Morale issues of others — Not any wrong-doing. I am naïve and trapped in my “illusions”.
• Colleague reactions — less important, still bothers me.
• “Lucky” people — I know I should be happy for them and I am. But it just reminds me of my status and “bad fortune”

I know I cannot afford to let emotions take too much control. I am giving myself time to recover. 

I am on the way to acceptance.

Till next time!